I'm not myself.. ByeBye..

*Sunday 19/10/2008*

BlaBlaBla..
2day was another Sunday..
Time flies.. Lik you didn't even realise its tat day, the day is over..
Oh..
Life's short on earth..

2day is Sunday.. Woke up at 5:45, actually going for the CityRun.. Reached there, Dad fetched me..
Waited for EJ for like half an hour.. Got frustrated and fed-up.. Went home..
Then afterwards know tat EJ reached there 3 min after I left..
And he was disappointed.. I let someone down again..
I'm a bad person.. Cruel.. Wicked.. Am I so bad??
Sad..

Den went home.. Blablabla..
Went church.. Wore pink..
2day was purple day according to 412.. I didn't hav a purple shirt, so wore pink instead..
Erm.. Ice-breaking.. Singing songs tat includes a word suggested by them..
The words are 'love' and any colour.
Phileo won.. Agape dint.. =.=

Den worship..
Worship was GREAT!! I felt lik I'm bac to God again..
Felt great and tremendous.. Sang with my heart content..
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I'm in such a bad mood now..
Now is 21:07 night..
Dunno wassup with me..
Felt lik everything was not in my mood..
Felt lik I'm living in spite of living..
My eyelids were dropping.. Brain was paralyzing.. Hands were numb..
The PMR-after-days mood was long gone.. And its juz 2days after PMR..
I think I'm goin crazy..
Goin crazy.. and forcing myself to sit in front of this stupid PC, chat with frens, replyin stupid comments on Friendster and do some stupid blogging..
I felt apart..
I'm so looking forward to pray to God..
Let God heal me..
Tomorrow goin sch, dunno wat'll I be..
Crazy, normal or stupid..
Juz hope tat my frens wil not be hurt bcause of my stupid emotions..
God, be with me, heal me O God..
I felt frustrated..

ByeBye..
ByeBye to my MSN frens, Friendster frens, my blog reader, and finally, PC..
I'm goin to abondon anything tat gotta do wif on9 and PC..
I'm crazy.. Crazy..
Dunno why..
Dont talk to me if you can..


Bye.

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PMR-over-days..

PMR over D!!
WooHoo!! Cool!!!! Fun!! GReaT!!
...
So, gotta do wat??
Erm...

Erm..
On9?? Sports?? Reading?? Hang out?? Sleep?? Eat?? Smash things?? Day-dream and night-dream?? Study (PUI!!)?? TV?? ...?? ...??
Wakakakaz.. Too many option lerh..

Maybe..
Juz depend on the mood tat day lorr..
Ya!! Tat's right!!
But no..
Wat if my mood everyday are the same??
Den do same thing everyday merh??
Of coz no right?? Den?!!

Erm..
Or.. U suggest smtg for me??
Good??
Erm.. No..

Den..??

Urgh..
B4 PMR, desperate for after PMR days..
Now PMR over D..
Every1 lik so happy, joyful, crazy..
N of coz me too lar..
But lik ntg to do lerrr..
Huh??
How wrong is that?? =.=
Wateva..
Brr..

Thx for reading this anyway..
=P

PMR, was nothing..

PMR, was nothing..
The paper was extremely easy and I didn't even study as much as I should..
Today is the third day of PMR..
2 days more to go..
Friday Geografi till 9:30 am..
Going gurney wif friends..
So looking forward to that day!!
Tomorrow BC and KH..
Nervous about the essay.. Wish me luck ^^

Animals Cool Facts!! 0.o

A giraffe can clean it's ears with it's 21-inch tongue.
The cat comes closer than any other animal except the owl and the ape to having binocular vision, similar to that of humans.
Gorillas sleep for as much as fourteen hours per day.
The cat has been living in close association with humans for somewhere between 3,500 and 8,000 years.
The lifespan of a squirrel is about nine years.
Cats have five toes on each front paw, but only four toes on each back paw.
The female lion does ninety percent of the hunting.
There are 701 types of pure breed dogs.
Herons will strike at shiny things- like your eyes.
All dogs, from the German Shepherd to the tiny Poodle, are direct descendants of wolves.

Catfish are the only animals that naturally have an ODD number of whiskers.
A dog can hear sounds 250 yards away that most people cannot hear beyond 25 yards.

Male rhesus monkeys often hang from tree branches by their amazing prehensile penises.

Elephants are the only animals that cant jump.
The sounds of the T rex in Jurassic Park were recorded from a bird.
An elephant raises it's trunk when it senses danger.

A cat's purr has the same romance-enhancing frequency as the voice of singer Barry White.

The jaguar is the third-largest feline after the tiger and the lion.
Polar bears can eat as many as 86 penguins in a single sitting.
The jaguar enjoys swimming.
Pigeons drink water through their "nose" (holes in their bill).

Most snakes have either only one lung, or in some cases, two, with one much reduced in size.

The shark is the world's largest predatory fish.
An old synonym for snake is serpent (which comes from Old French, and ultimately from *serp-, "to creep".

They use their rough skin to generate a layer of turbulence over their skin, which acts as a lubricant to allow the surrounding water to pass them faster, and hense allow them to swim faster.
All snakes are carnivorous, eating small animals including lizards and other snakes, rodents and

other small mammals, birds, eggs or insects.
Great whites are found in all the oceans of the world, at all latitudes.
The siberian tiger is the largest cat species in the world.
The Bengal Tiger is the most common subspecies of tiger, constituting approximately 80% of the entire tiger population.
Humans are the tiger's most significant predator, as tigers are often poached illegally for their fur.
The five "polar bear nations" in which the bears are found include the U.S. (Alaska), Canada, Russia, Denmark (Greenland), and Norway.
Polar bears do not live in the southern hemisphere.
The scientific name for the polar bear is Ursus maritimus, which means 'Sea Bear' in the Greek language.

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PMR.. SO??!!

-PMR-
Based on that info above, I wanna ask you:
How many words does PMR has??
1?? 2?? 3?? 4??
Obviously, its 3.. Duh.. =.=

So..
My point is..
Is juz 3 words, so..
Wat's point gettin so nervous bout it??
Wat's point gettin so scared bout it??
Its juz an exam, 'PMR', juz 3 words, a symbol of an exam, tat seems to be feared by students who are form3..
What's the big deal bout PMR??

What??
What???

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One step at a time

Put your music player on shuffle.
For each question press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.
You must write the name of the song down no matter what!!!

If someone says ‘is this okay?’ You say:
Where is the love-Black Eyed Peas
Yea!! Where is the love?? Why is no one loving me?? I'm sad!!

What would best describe your personality?
Sorry blame it on me-Akon
What have I done wrong?? Why blame me?? UNFAIR!!

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Complicated-Avril Lavigne
Yea right.. The complicated the better..

How do you feel today?
Smack that-Akon
Smack THAT!! I'm MAD!! AARRGGHHH!!

What is your life’s purpose?
Crazy frog-Axel
Crazy frog?? Huh??

What do your friends think of you?
Everything-Michael Buble
Whoa!! I'm you guys everything?? *Sob sob* I'm so touched guys.. *Sob*

What do you think of your parents?
Love song-Sara Bareilles
O0oooo... They're my love song.. ^^

What do you think about very often?
Can't fight the moonlight-
Ya lorr!! The moonlight!! Urgh!! Mayb I'll fight sunligh 1st..

What is 2+2?
I swear-All-4-One
Whoa!! 2+2, I swear?? Its a promise to a girl, future gf, or mayb...??

What do you think of the person you like?
Home-Westlife
Wakakakakz.. Home.. So perfect!!

What is your life story?
If that's OK with you-Shayne Ward
IF my life is ok with you.. Yea.. Its great then!!

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Because of You-Kelly Clarkson
Yup.. I'm gonna giv everything to you.. My love.. =P

What do you think when you see the person you like?
Always be my baby-David Cook
YEA!! WooHoo!! 8D

What do your parents think of you?
You had a bad day-Daniel Powter
Whoa!! I had a bad day?? Daddy Mummy's gonna punish me!! OH NO!! Wat've I done wrong?? NOOOO0oooo!!!

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Beautiful Girl-Sean Kingston
YEa.. I'm gonna dance 'beatiful girl' with you, Beautiful girl..

What will they play at your funeral?
Empty-The Click Five
Yea.. Life's empty.. Juz like that, you died..

What is your hobby/interest?
Realize-Colbie Calliat
Hahax.. I'd love to realize things & stuff when I'm free.. XD

What is your biggest secret?
Bleeding Love-Leona Lewis
My love, is bleeding.. OUCH!!

What do you think of your closest friends?
Carry you home-James Blunt
What??!! Sorry bro I'm so sorry.. But.. But I gotta carry you home.. Sorry.. =P

What should you post this as?
One step at a time-Jordin Sparks
One song at a time

I tag.. You!!

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Building a mansion, PMR..???

PMR, 4 days to go..'

I reckon others are at home, studyin as hard as possible..
Try to cramp everythin they could in the small small brain..
And mistreating their 2 small eyes, makin thin blood vessels to appear upon the white cute cornea. Cute??
And study till the eleventh hour, nt gettin enough sleep.. But so what?? Gettin all A's for PMR is more important than havin a few hours more sleep .. Think so??
Not only themselves, the light and bulbs tat bring light upon them are gettin weary by every seconds..
Why suffer lik dat??
Hahax..

I consider myself lucky enough..
Study for bout 1 hour++ a day..
And stil hav plenty of time, i mean PLENTY, to on9, chat, sports, surf net, blog, playin guitar, watch TV and blablabla..
Dint put too much pressure on myself though..
MayB PMR to me, is not the end of the world yet..
And mayb the fact tat I'm goin to SG tat make me think tat PMR is nt exactly as necessary
Or mayb rumours tat PMR is very easy..

Anyway, PMR is as important as learning on how to build a mansion..
Whoa!! Build a mansion!! Seems impossible to me though..
So, that's mean PMR is impossible..
!!
Who said tat??!! No idea..
Bac to the point..
Juz giv ur best in PMR..
U juz get to sit in an PMR exam once in a lifetime..
So, dun waste it juz lik dat!!
GAMBATEH!!

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He let me down..
Its not his fault..
And I dint blame him..
But..

I shared everything with him..
But he kept 1 secret from me..
That secret I juz found out..

I'm sad..
I gonna start all over again..
Juz maybe..
In spite of I'm going to SG anyway..
So maybe I could find some1 who's better..

Tears forming..
But I held it, not to let them drop..
I'm not going to cry juz lik dat..

The world is not juz lik dat..

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Sleepless Night

*Saturday.4/10/2008.8:40pm*

Finally, the time I've been looking forward to for the past 2 hours had reached..
Dad fecthed me to SEan's house, clinging a bag on my shoulder, inside it was my Bible, a pen, my clothes for tml youth service, and a bottle..
I reached, MAx wasn't there yet, so Sean took me to his bedroom to put my bag, den he went to take the 2 DVD's, 1 bout 'Buddha and Jesus' and 'Heaven and Hell'..
5 minutes later, Max's here..

Den we went upstairs, to a huge room, that obviously could fit 5 elephants and stil has enough space to play tennis..
Wakakakz!!
Obviously, its nt that big though, but its big enough and we can play badminton in it, but that's not wat we went to his house for..
We watched 2 totally cool sermen from a totally cool pastor, called Pastor Steve, who was a Siamese born in New York and grew up there..
We watched the 'Buddha and Jesus' part 1st..
As we juz started, I felt so awake and eager..
Den we watched the 'Heaven and Hell' DVD..
Totally cool and mind-blowing..
We chat, joked, and had a great time, and had some snacks..
We finshed at 11 smtg..

Den finally, got some break from the long period of starin at the TV..
Den went for supper at BT, dunno where tat was, it's a food court, with Sean's family and me and MAx and Sean..
Ate pork porridge.. Oh!! Its Hari RAya.. So what?? We're not muslims, we're christians..
Den went home.. Brush up, bathed, got into his room, devotional, chatting, listening to some cool HillSong music, quiet time, praying, blablabla..
Went to sleep, it was 2pm then..
Squeezed between Max, an extremely big guy and Sean, who is not very small either..
=.=
Finally, as we trio cant went to sleep, Sean suggested tat we watched Tv awhile..
Tip-toed downstairs to the TV room, watched Astro, totally pissed-off..
Sean's astro is like, no HBO,Cinemax,CartoonNetwork,MTV,E!,Anime,WLT..
So we channeled here and there.. Totally bored..
Then, finally, Sean gt somekind of 'inspire' and suggested tat we have some movies..
Great!! Finally smtg to entertain myself..
Watched Jumper, great action movie, I liked the part where Griffin and David and Roland went fighting and battling each other.. Way totally cool..

Watched till 3am lik dat..
Went to bed, juz went to bed, bt dint sleep..
And Max, Sean suddenly went crazy and start tickling me and 'bullying' me and squeezing me and teasing me and blablabla..
I had a TOTALLY GREAT time!!
Pui!!
Finally, Max starting to doze off and Sean too.. At last, we all are in our dreams..

To enclose this post.. Erm.. I definitely had a great time that night..
Watching sermen, and God spoke to me, urging me to share Good News with friends to save their souls from going into hell, suffering from everlasting fire..
And our friendship was closely bond.. Although they got me kinda fed-up during the night..
And I wanna thank God, that He had blessed me with these things..
Amen..

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A promise, broke, that lead to another promise..

*Friday.3/10/2008.Night*

4pm just now, online..
Sean asked me whether I'm going for CG afterwards..
I, gladly, said yes and was looking forward to it..
Very looking forward..
As its my first time..

7pm went for dinner, with family..
Had a great time..
But that time, I was not very eager to go to CG..
8pm, was in the car, Dad wanna drove me to GBC, which is 3 minutes from the food court..
1 junction to GBC..
I, suddenly changed my mind, that was truly regretted now, and doesn't want to go CG..
So, Dad drove me and family back home..
Online..

*Beeping..Beeping..*
Picked up my mobilephone, it was Sean..
"Xiang, what time are you coming??" he sounded like a person who is going to meet his best friend after long years of apart..
I was dumbfounded:"Er...Er.. I'm not coming.." -I struggle with the words- "Sorry bro.."

Went online again..
*Beeping..Beeping..*
*1 new message*
Sean: LIAR!!

The world seems to crumble above me, pressuring me with guilt..

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I regretted..
And I am sorry..
Sorry guys..
I broke a promise made to my best friends, and I am not that kind of person who break promises easily..
But I broke it..
I broke it..

I wanna make a promise here, now..
A promise, that I will not break any promise anymore..
I will try my best to keep any promise made..
And this, is a promise..
And it will be kept.. I promised..
A promise, broke, that lead to another promise..